Audaciously Her

The only thing I limited myself to telling him was OK, while he continued talking, my mind was blank. I said goodbye, thanked him and left the place. Although I already knew what would happen even days before, I had never felt what I felt that morning. I had never been fired from a job and although the layoff was justified, I had never felt the helplessness of not fighting back, much less not belonging. I would not be the only one that day, there were more people who were let go, but in general, due to the pandemic, many companies had to let go of many workers.

Suddenly, I was sitting in front of a man that I admired the most as I listened to him say to me, words that he probably already knew by heart because he had repeated them so many times, “Due to the COVID crisis and the situation we have in the company, we have decided to let you go.”

A month had passed after this situation, and I felt that I had managed to understand the reason for things. I had always felt secure and independent with my job, it gave me satisfaction to achieve things I never thought I could achieve.

This situation made me think about the following:

NOTHING is certain in life
We should never take for granted something that we already have in life, we should know that we are replaceable, and we are not essential. Nothing lasts forever; however, we must continue our process of inner search and be at peace.

TAKE time to grieve but DO NOT stay there
After the first few days of my layoff, I had a happiness, I should say, toxic, because my family and friends would ask me if I was okay and I answered that I was better than ever, however, inside me, I felt very sad and depressed. Weeks later, I finally cried my eyes out and was able to see the reality of my situation. I was unemployed.

It is okay to cry and even feel devastated, however, the world does not end there, we must get up and continue with our lives.

It’s not your fault!
At first, I felt a lot of guilt when I was fired. I asked myself again and again if I had something to do with it or if I hadn’t done enough that they finally decided to let me go, I felt terrified. I wondered, why me and no other people. After thinking for a while and talking to my friends and family, I realized that the company’s decision was not my fault. This pandemic surpassed not only my company but was something that shook all companies in Mexico. It was not my fault.

It was an opportunity to EXPLORE AND FULFILL DREAMS
I always said that I would be my own boss only if I had the time and resources and believe me, finally it happened, I had the time and the resources. I had to figure out how to begin but pursuing my dreams became the engine for me to continue. I always came home tired and never had the time, but after layoff, staying home to a much-needed rest was unbelievable. Nothing guarantees that it will be easy, but things happen for a reason, and this could be the second chance you are waiting for.

For all those colleagues and friends who lost their jobs, let’s not give up, there will always be an opportunity waiting for you out there. Difficulties make us better and stronger.

Finally, I want to thank God for always taking care of me, because despite having gone through this situation, HE closed a door, but he opened a better one.

Four months later, I was hired to my dream job.

Jeremiah 29:11
I know the plans I have in mind for you, declares the Lord; they are plans for peace, not disaster, to give you a future filled with hope.

Cinthia Paola